Meanwhile, I realized someone was called for water (as usual), and I stopped them that it shouldn't be done. I asked them to move away and called for two volunteers for help. All I could remember was the recovery position. By the time I reached the victim, the blood flow has already stopped, and by subconscious thinking, I wasn't ready to touch his brain to stop the bleeding. All I wanted was for him to keep breathing, at least because if he keeps breathing, his heart is pumping. I asked them for help to make him lay down. Slowly the gap between his breath increased, and with each second, I could hear my heart racing faster. All I could hear in my head is, oh my god, please, please, oh my god. It was a miracle that I could put him in a recovery position in one attempt with so much going on in the scene and my head, thanks to all the voice programs I volunteered during my volunteering period in the alert. When I finally tried to move his head to open up the airway, he gasped hard to breathe. The voice of Karthi sir echoed in my head, don't panic. You are doing the right thing. I tried to hold his head by chin lift. But he was breathing through his mouth, and I had to touch his head. I tried hard to keep him breathing. All I could hear in my head, oh my god, please, oh my god. His breathing gap keeps increasing with every gasp volume increasing. In the process of trying to hold his head and chin-up, I realized I touched his wound (probably the brain). My mind shouted, oh shit. The adrenaline pumping in my stomach made me breathe heavily and fast. In a panic, I was looking around with so many thoughts running inside my head, what should I do, wat should I do. People started slowly gathering, but no one disturbed the scene. I wanted to check his vitals as he could breathe now and searched for the pulse in his neck. The aim was to know if his pulse is going too low so that I can give CPR. I realized in the recovery position. It was tough to locate the vein. I couldn't find a pulse anywhere. I was trying desperately everywhere - behind ear, neck, wrist, even chest. I remembered my words during voice training. It will be tough to check pulse if you are tensed, and even if you find you can't be sure if it's the victim's pulse and not yours. My heartbeat got heavy. I was praying inside my head, oh god, please keep breathing, please, and he gasped with a loud noise, and I could see so much water and blood and sputum slowly flowing out of his mouth and nose. Slowly a noise arrived on the scene. Finally, the ambulance. I repeated in my head, slowly whispering, oh god, please keep breathing, keep breathing, and he gasped again. The ambulance came, and a stretcher was brought to the scene. We rolled him, and I made him lay in a recovery position. Every time he was moved, I made sure to hold his head to avoid spine injury. The ambulance swiftly went, and my shivering didn't stop for another 5 mins. Two ppl ran from the scene to me, asking whether I was a doctor. I remembered the posts by our voice graduates in the group about praising and asking about them after the scene. I was so panic-struck I just told them no, I am not a doctor, and I just had training and took the bike to leave the scene. One person asked for my number, I just gave, thinking it can serve another emergency in the future, and I left the scene home. The visuals of the deep wound and the victim gasping for every breath ran in my head several times. As I live alone for work purposes, I couldn't help it. I switched on my laptop, took some water, and played a movie to help myself. It took me 2 hrs to come out of the effect. After that, I got a phone call from the person from the scene. He told, the doctor told us he wouldn't be able to save him and to inform his relatives. My heart broke hearing the news, and again his last moments played in my head. I called someone in our alert fraternity to talk. He told me he handled two head injury cases similar to mine yesterday, and he doesn't know their status. It took me a whole day to come out of it, and I realized many things from the incident.